Amy K ran: This was not my best ...

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  • 13 miles
  • 03:26 time
  • 16:01 pace
  • 4318 calories
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  • 0 ft climb
  • 0 max hr
  • 0 avg hr
    • Currently 4/5 Effort.
    effort 4/5
blah Rock N Roll Chicago Half Marathon 12.86 mi 03:26 16:01 pace

This was not my best race. I walked more than I would have liked, had breathing issues (thanks, humid air), and pain in my left foot/ankle. I also got to a very dark place mentally throughout the race. I didn't like it. The mental pain I put myself through was almost as bad as the physical pain I feel right now. This was a rough race for me. Started out fine. All smiles and happiness for the first half. The second half got rough. I had a hard time with my breathing - I couldn't get very deep breaths, so I got light-headed due to the shallow breathing. Asthma and the heavy, humid air didn't help. I drank water, ran through the hoses at cooling stations, drank gatorade, took a couple salt packets and 5 of my shot blocks. The 12th mile was by far the worst - both mentally and physically. I considered giving up a few times, and then I thought about baby Paxton, who passed away last month. I wanted to finish strong for him. So I started running again, despite the pain in my lower half. Got to the last water station. Was starting to feel a little better. I knew I had a mile or so left. I knew I had this. Then there was a fucking bus blocking the course. You've got to be kidding me. I made sure I was ahead of the 3:30 pace group the entire race. I NEVER saw them pass me. But the race organizers wanted to open up the roads so they forced us onto a bus. That was a bus full of pissed off people. The race official said, "Don't worry, you'll still get to finish." I almost replied, "FUCK YOU. We are a mile from the finish and I don't care that I still 'get to finish'. I want to EARN MY FUCKING MEDAL." The most heartbreaking thing was seeing the last runner they let through. I could see her just ahead. I knew if they let me off the bus, I would catch up to her. They made us sit on the bus for about 7 minutes. Then it took maybe 5 minutes to drive us less than half a mile. The time they spent making us wait on the bus and driving that half mile - I would have been a quarter mile from the finish. What a waste. I got off the bus and sprinted the last half mile. It will be interesting to see race photos. I know that my finish chute and finish line photos will be nasty. I was pissed, swearing and certainly didn't smile at all. I don't feel like I deserve a medal. And I'm pissed at the organizers. I knew the course had a 3.5 hr time limit. And I knew I could finish in that time. I just wasn't given the opportunity to do so. I didn't even cross the start line until almost 30 minutes after the race started. Needless to say, I've been a crabby bitch the rest of the day. I'm tired, I'm sore and I want to punch someone. I'm beginning to think that the Lakefront Marathon won't be happening for me this year after all. I'm not quite ready to talk about that though.

  • David F.
    David F.

    Great write up. So sorry to hear this. Keep your head up.

    almost 5 years ago Like

  • Augie S.
    Augie S.

    You never gave up! That's the important thing here. You have every right to be angry, but don't you dare leave me to run the LFM without you!

    almost 5 years ago Like2 people

  • Emily K.
    Emily K.

    Love you!

    almost 5 years ago Like1 person

  • Marlene E.
    Marlene E.

    Amy I'm sorry it was sucky and that they didn't let you finish. That would really piss me off too! My plan of action would be to wallow in it for a couple of days then shake it off and get back at it. You ca do this marathon.

    almost 5 years ago Like

  • John S.
    John S.

    You ran this race for a great cause and used it to keep you going, even through mental and physical pain. You deserve that fucking medal! Paxton would be proud of you!

    almost 5 years ago Like1 person

  • Meagan K.
    Meagan K. Feel Better
    Feel Better:

    Wow! That would piss me off, too! But you still did over 12 miles, and that alone is awesome. Keeping the mental part in check is the hardest part.

    almost 5 years ago