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DEEP THOUGHT FOR A MONDAY. I used to self medicate. It was my way of coping with who I was and the world that I was in. It was not a healthy way to handle things. I knew it then and I know it now even more. It did serve it’s purpose though and I was able to make it through every day dulled to pain and oblivious to certain realities. Now that I have been clean for a while I am able to make realizations that I was blind to before. I find that it is easier for me to pick out my faults. Before, this would have scared me because I would have no idea of how to continue on in such a flawed manner. Now, I look at it as an opportunity to improve myself. I have learned so much about who I am that I never knew before…either I have changed or I am completely different than I used to view myself…or maybe a bit of both. It has been a very humbling but extremely rewarding experience. I am very thankful to all of you DM friends who have seen me come around over the last 15 months or so. Every day I feel like a stronger human being as I inch closer to the person that I always wanted to be. Hopefully I have given something back. Thanks everyone. Hope everyone is having a good day.

  • Erin D.
    Erin D.

    You've given back to us, Steve, and I'm happy to see you posting again. Good for you for recognizing your flaws, accepting them, and working on improving yourself!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Gwenyan
    Gwenyan

    You. Are. Fab.

    about 2 years ago Like2 people

  • Heather
    Heather

    It's our pleasure to have you around. Does this mean I have to stop self medicating?

    about 2 years ago Like5 people

  • Angela
    Angela

    Truly touching and inspirational!! So happy to hear you are doing better! You've definitely given back to me in the way of your sense of humor... Oh yeah, and your running is pretty damn inspirational too! Thanks for sharing this with us!!

    about 2 years ago Like

  • Jen R.
    Jen R.

    You are awesome, Steve. Happy to have you as a DM friend :)

    about 2 years ago Like2 people

  • Theresa L.

    My favorite Canadian! :)

    about 2 years ago Like3 people

  • Mofo
    Mofo

    Keep coming back Steve. It works if you work it.

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Derek R.
    Derek R.

    I'm always pleasured by you......wait a second.......

    about 2 years ago Like12 people

  • Leah

    You are freakin awesome dude - proud to call you my friend !

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Hill
    Hill

    You are amazing Steve and I love your posts. I used to do the same but it was with food and a lot of it. Feeling the feelings is better though. Not always fun but better.

    about 2 years ago Like2 people

  • Steve P.
    Steve P.

    +++Vibes man you are awesome!! glad you are doing better!! hang in there and hurry up getting well so we can read your awesome posts!! "if it is to be its up to me" is one of my favorite quotes and why I workout like a madman!! take it and apply it!! if fits you!!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Laura A.
    Laura A.

    Well Steve I've only "known" you for a month or so but can honestly say that I always look forward to your posts and what you have to say. It takes a really big man to admit he has flaws and to do whatever needs to be done to correct them. I'm proud to call you friend! Keep it up and life will just keep getting better. Happy Monday Steve!!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Lucy
    Lucy

    You're amazing. I'm so proud of you, and the fact that you've kept your sense of humor through all of this speaks volumes about the stellar quality of your personality. Also, boobies.

    about 2 years ago Like3 people

  • Ceridwen L.
    Ceridwen L.

    You are awesome.

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Steve
    Steve

    WOW...thanks you guys. You are all amazing. Everyone here has made my voyage easier and so much fun. You are all a constant source of motivation and we all have laughs. I love it.

    about 2 years ago Like2 people

  • Steve
    Steve

    Derek...bad dog. Taryn...boobies are great.

    about 2 years ago Like4 people

  • Lester
    Lester

    Nice Job Buddy!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Alan T.
    Alan T.

    I think you've always been a strong and decent person. It's only now that you're realizing that. It's an honour to know you.

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Nora
    Nora

    I've been to the dark side. They have cookies and booze (and boobies), it's easy to stay there. I'm proud of you for finding your way out and hanging out with the our angelic asses on the light side. :)

    about 2 years ago Like4 people

  • Lucy
    Lucy

    Plus runner girls have boobies AND good asses. And we certainly aren't afraid of sweat.

    about 2 years ago Like4 people

  • Nora
    Nora

    Boobie sweat!! And yoga pants on our good asses!!

    about 2 years ago Like3 people

  • Derek R.
    Derek R.

    My spidey sense tingled at sweaty boobs and yoga pants and I added the sweat to the asses

    about 2 years ago Like3 people

  • Lachelle A.
    Lachelle A.

    Very proud of you Steve! I too have moved from the dark side, so believe me when I say I can truly appreciate your journey. Thank you for continuing to inspire everyday!

    about 2 years ago Like3 people

  • Nora
    Nora

    Naturally. And now Steve is hot and bothered and convinced he made the right choice, though perhaps slightly annoyed that we have hijacked his thread. But he's Canadian and way too polite to say so.

    about 2 years ago Like2 people

  • Jay S.
    Jay S.

    I liked ya 15 months ago and I like ya now. I hope you become the version of you that you want to be. I like all versions of you so far.

    about 2 years ago Like4 people

  • Lucy
    Lucy

    We totally hijacked his thread. Sorry Steve. It's only bc we love you.

    about 2 years ago Like2 people

  • Derek R.
    Derek R.

    and girl sweat tastes like candy

    about 2 years ago Like2 people

  • Seth T.
    Seth T.

    Very big of you to talk open and honest about yourself. You give as much to DM and you from DM. You are a good friend on here and I am happy to be connected to you. Keep up the runs, the posting and all the talk of boobies. All 3 things make me happy. Hopefully you as well.

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Steve
    Steve

    Aw man...thanks again everyone. Feel free to hijack my threads whenever you want (and not just because I am Canadian but because I am all about hijacked threads...as you are probably all well aware.) I love candy.

    about 2 years ago Like3 people

  • Royce B.
    Royce B.

    seems like most of us have done some time on "The Dark Side"

    about 2 years ago Like2 people

  • Jocelyn

    ♥! You give back and then some!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Steve
    Steve

    Your in reflective mood today Steve! I've still got more faces than Big Ben and never touched drugs. :)

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Jenny B.
    Jenny B.

    You were one of the first ones I reached out to on here. AND I AM SO GLAD I DID! ;) Love your humor, your passion, your candidness, your candyness, and your photo shopping skills. You've got mad skills- and DM would never be the same without you. Nice deep thought sharing. Jack Handy has nothing on YOU.

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Karen F.
    Karen F.

    :)!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Honey Boo Boo
    Honey Boo Boo

    And, again, I say I love you. In the most inappropriate of ways. You are as good as it gets, Steve. Rock on....

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Sarah G.
    Sarah G.

    Thanks for sharing, Steve. We are all a work in progress :)

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Pierre M.
    Pierre M.

    Sarah G just said the exact thing I was about to say!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Brad A.
    Brad A.

    duuuuuude. yea.

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Suzy E.
    Suzy E.

    Is this a recent transformation? Only in the past 15 mths? Man. Thats really impressive. You have great eloquence and wisdom.

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Michelle G.
    Michelle G.

    Very impressed with all that you have done in 15 short months! You continue to inspire all of us. We all have some skeletons in our closets and you were able to get rid of yours....Way to go Steve!!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Mel Z.
    Mel Z.

    Wow. Are we allowed to self medicate through running though? I know I do. Don't know your journey but it sounds inspiring!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Flat Lori
    Flat Lori

    Awesome story, thanks for sharing

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Tracey C.
    Tracey C.

    Thank you so much for writing this. Both your deep thoughts and crazy tomfoolery are always welcome here!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Leah

    Steve Ive been thinking about these words a lot - thanks for this .

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Jenny W.
    Jenny W.

    You are a pretty cool human. Love you, man!

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Tim T.
    Tim T.

    Cheers brother

    about 2 years ago Like1 person

  • Suzy H.
    Suzy H.

    To say you have given something back would be to say you gave us change for a $10 in $100 bills.

    about 2 years ago Like